Self reflection

Over the course of the semester I have learned a lot of things. During the first half of the year I had slacked off. I often thought it didn’t matter, and I didn’t have to do any of the work. I was very wrong. To pass the class I knew I had to do work, and also show an intellectual commitment to my work. On December 17th 2007 I came up with a plan, and wrote it in my blog. I had written; "I want my whole paper to be definantly done (or at least drafted) by Monday January 7th .Since I need to portray and intellectual commitment to my work, I want to start showing it here. I am now committing my self to have this done by the date stated above." By that day I had all my chunks posted up. I believe that me doing what I did shows that I was intellectually committed to my work.

After I had learned all these things I feel like I am different. I’m not going to change my whole way of life but I am not going to lie and say this had no impact on me. I honestly can connect mostly to the movie the matrix. I feel like I have just learned the truth, and I'm in a fake world. I look at things I have learned such as the thought of knowing my feelings, and feeling my body, and I try to at least once a day point them out to myself. When asked to prove that I stay thoughtful of my orientation to life, I don’t fully understand what to answer. What I think that means is do I use what I have learned in my daily life. I constantly am thoughtful to what I have learned, every day. I even find myself arguing points learned in class with my friends at lunch, or my parents at home. I have shared all of the textual handouts to my mother, just to hear what she had to say about them…she didn’t agree with a lot of the points.

I also feel as if this class taught me how to converse and speak better with other people. Actually in our class I feel my verbal communication had improved the most. The biggest change in my life that I have gained from this class is the way I argue and debate. I felt in this class that I loved to argue points, and argue my points. Especially when Andy would say a point I didn’t agree with, I wasn’t shy to argue with Andy. Often I felt that Andy would state some crazy idea, but the way he spoke it, and the way he argued it, all you can do is agree with it. That is what I wanted to learn the most. Am I master at it? Probably not, but I’m better than I used to be.

I had a digital commitment to the course. The way I think I can prove this is the way that I obviously used the blog to complete my work. I also used the blog website to comment on other people’s work, to try and question or help them with what they had written. As an artistic commitment I pretty much just did the assigned art work.

In conclusion all I really want to say is that I have grown a lot since the beginning of the semester. I have learned to not blame any of my laziness on anyone else but myself, and I than tried to correct it. I pretty much feel as if I went from a lazy kid who did no work, and didn’t pay attention to the class work, to a kid who found interest, and used that interest in class to carry me on to complete my work.